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It has been FOREVER since I have let my home going anywhere...let alone jumping on a plane and calling myself going on vacation.
I...AM...STRESSED!!
Being at TW is going to be a trip of a lifetime for me. But, preparing to go is what is absolutely, undeniably overwhelming.
For starters, I have to get my house in order. It is a complete mess! I've always said I was born to have a maid and I'm sticking to that story. :wink: My sis is coming over to take care of my boys and she keeps her house in great shape..smelling good and all. And then there's me.... :lol:
Next, I have to get my sons in order. Their medications, routines..ALL of that has to be recorded so my sis will know what to do and when.
I have to go grocery shopping so they will have food to eat. My sis does not drive, so I have to make sure they have everything they need.
And my little Emilio...OH, how I am going to miss him so. :cry: I'm not sure he's going to do well with my abscence. I've been the soul caretaker of him since he was born. Most of you know that he's Autistic and basically nonverbal. Although he has a computer that he ocassionally speaks through, he really tries to speak on his own and most of the time I can understand. BUT...will my sister? He is also very big on the days of the week and what is happening "tomorrow." He always says to me, "Tomorrow is (include the day of the week and activity here)." Emilio has this large magnetic calendar where he places the season, year, month and days on it. There are also lots of magnetic round pieces that have different holidays and activities on them to be placed on the appropriate days. Well, I printed two small pictures of myself and two small pics of my sister, doubled a small piece of tape on the back of them and placed them on top of four of the round pieces. I then wrote "Bye Bye" on one of my pics and also on one of my sister's. I also wrote "Back Home" on my other pic and "Hi" on the last of my sister's pics. Lastly, I called Emilio in his room, placed my "Bye Bye" pic on the 21st as well as my sis' "Hi" pic. I explained to him that I was going to be leaving, but would be back. That's when I put the last two pics of my "Back Home" and sis' "Bye Bye" on the 25th. I also showed him my suitcases hoping he would get the gist of the whole thing. He seemed perfectly fine with it, but I know him. If it is not clear to him now, it will be soon and then I will see that said little face that just tears me apart.
I KNOW that I need this vacation. Even if it's no more than to get away from this sickening cat I got about two months ago that won't let me out of her sight!!! (HER I will be GLAD to get away from!) I know that my sons need time away from me and I, as a mom, need time away as well. But, why does it all have to be so hard and....STRESSFUL? See? I just yelled at my 15 year old to leave me alone...I have to go apologize.
I just needed to vent. Back to work......
I...AM...STRESSED!!
Being at TW is going to be a trip of a lifetime for me. But, preparing to go is what is absolutely, undeniably overwhelming.
For starters, I have to get my house in order. It is a complete mess! I've always said I was born to have a maid and I'm sticking to that story. :wink: My sis is coming over to take care of my boys and she keeps her house in great shape..smelling good and all. And then there's me.... :lol:
Next, I have to get my sons in order. Their medications, routines..ALL of that has to be recorded so my sis will know what to do and when.
I have to go grocery shopping so they will have food to eat. My sis does not drive, so I have to make sure they have everything they need.
And my little Emilio...OH, how I am going to miss him so. :cry: I'm not sure he's going to do well with my abscence. I've been the soul caretaker of him since he was born. Most of you know that he's Autistic and basically nonverbal. Although he has a computer that he ocassionally speaks through, he really tries to speak on his own and most of the time I can understand. BUT...will my sister? He is also very big on the days of the week and what is happening "tomorrow." He always says to me, "Tomorrow is (include the day of the week and activity here)." Emilio has this large magnetic calendar where he places the season, year, month and days on it. There are also lots of magnetic round pieces that have different holidays and activities on them to be placed on the appropriate days. Well, I printed two small pictures of myself and two small pics of my sister, doubled a small piece of tape on the back of them and placed them on top of four of the round pieces. I then wrote "Bye Bye" on one of my pics and also on one of my sister's. I also wrote "Back Home" on my other pic and "Hi" on the last of my sister's pics. Lastly, I called Emilio in his room, placed my "Bye Bye" pic on the 21st as well as my sis' "Hi" pic. I explained to him that I was going to be leaving, but would be back. That's when I put the last two pics of my "Back Home" and sis' "Bye Bye" on the 25th. I also showed him my suitcases hoping he would get the gist of the whole thing. He seemed perfectly fine with it, but I know him. If it is not clear to him now, it will be soon and then I will see that said little face that just tears me apart.
I KNOW that I need this vacation. Even if it's no more than to get away from this sickening cat I got about two months ago that won't let me out of her sight!!! (HER I will be GLAD to get away from!) I know that my sons need time away from me and I, as a mom, need time away as well. But, why does it all have to be so hard and....STRESSFUL? See? I just yelled at my 15 year old to leave me alone...I have to go apologize.
I just needed to vent. Back to work......
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